I suppose it is borderline obligatory for a blogger to post a “year in review” entry. A time for us to reflect on the year we are leaving behind and look with optimism toward the year ahead. It is for me perhaps a good time to take of measure where I am and where I want to be.
2011 has been somewhat of a whirlwind for me both personally and professionally – I sometimes forget just how far I have come.
When 2011 ushered itself in I was driving a wheelchair van waiting for an EMT position to open up at the company where I work. Having 7 1/2 years of experience prior to taking that job it was “humbling” to have to reinvest myself in the dues we all have to pay when we enter the profession. By the end of the month I was doing my third rides to clear to independent duty on the bus.
I went through two partners before being forced by my employer to go to part time status if I wanted to pursue my education.
I discovered EMS social media and the multitude of blogs out there. I read and I read and I read somemore – somewhere in the recesses of my mind I decided I wanted to give this blogging thing a shot… it started with random stuff – I read something that moved me, or about a shift whatever… after a couple months EMS Blogs.com decided to pick up the blog – which was really an honor to me – and now a lot more people read the blog then ever before.
The days when I put out what I believe is a killer post – I’m often disappointed at the numbers of people who read it – or how often it is(n’t) shared on FB or whatever – then I remember what a privilege it is that even one person takes the time to read the drivel I spout here. At those times I remind myself the reason I write is to “vent”, to process, or just to release some of the pent up “stuff” this job brings out in us all – whether anyone reads it or not – I still get that.
I wrapped up all my pre-reqs for paramedic school and stressed my way through the spring hoping I would get the nod for what is THE program for me… after a couple months of sleepless nights and constant stress I got the acceptance letter and for the last three months paramedic school has all but been my life.
I regularly work on a 911 car now in one of several districts that our company is the provider for… It’s a rare occassion anymore when I work a flex car doing routine transfers.
I’ve learned that I know even less then I thought I did, and that anyone who says they know all they need to is full of crap.
I’ve gotten better at leaving all the “preconceived” notions about calls and patients behind, and am trying to learn to maintain a high level of suspicion on all calls.
I’ve realized that all the fancy machines that go beep and buzz and whirl – they dont really tell you anything you shouldn’t already know from a THROUGH assessment.
I am slowly making the transition I believe is the hardest part of going from being an EMT to a paramedic – being the team lead and running things.
It’s been a year of tremendous growth and rapid change, and one I’ll look back on with fond memories… see you in 2012